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THROUGH ROSE

You promised me the world.
Filled my mind with hope and empty dreams.
You promised to protect me.
But I now realize.. I’m better off without you.
I’m better off without you.
 
You took advantage of my innocence and optimism.
A child looking through rose,
wanting nothing more than harmony in a broken world.
 
I looked up to you.
Your confidence hid your intents so well.
An empty reflection that gave me a false sense of comfort.
 
I don’t have the words to say.
But I hope that one day.
You will see what you did to me,
And all the pain you’ve made
 
You fooled me into thinking I was your reason why.
I craved your presence. Hung onto every word and lie
that skipped across your lips.
Your shallow decadence,
Skewing the reality of my consciousness.
 
You made me believe I couldn’t do this without you.
That you were the missing piece to my life.
You made me think you could fix all the damage done
and love me all the same.
Covered my eyes from the truth to hide
who was really left to blame.
 
I don’t have the words to say.
But I hope that one day.
You will see what you did to me,
And the pain you made.
I just wanted you to know that I put my faith in you.
I wanted to believe, but you threw it all away.
 
I see what I am to you. A pawn in a game only you knew.
Living to be the hero in the light,
striving as the menace while I sleep at night.
Digging your fangs deeper in my heart,
convincing me, while you play the part.
You’re the remedy to wounds left by you.
Grinning at all that you’ve put me through.
 
I’m better off without you.
I don’t have the words to say.
But I hope that one day.
You will see what you did to me,
And the pain you made.
I just wanted you to know that I put my faith in you.
I wanted to believe, but you threw it all away.
 

BREATHE

The light shines of tomorrow’s sun dancing my eyes awake.  

It points my gaze in the direction I need to go. 

Pushing me to follow in the river’s tempo. 

I’m afraid to move forward and leap.

But something whispers to trust in my own two feet.

A new horizon is calling out to me.

I have to let myself breathe.

I’ve been still for too long. The grass bear beneath me. 

Trying to rip the roots up, the wind wraps around me.

It points my gaze in the direction I need to go. 

Hushing me to listen to what the birds know.

I’m afraid to move forward and leap.

But something whispers to trust in my own two feet.

A new horizon is calling out to me.

I have to let myself breathe.

I have to let myself breathe

Just breathe 

I’m afraid to move forward and leap.

But something whispers to trust in my own two feet.

A new horizon is calling out to me.

I have to let myself breathe.

Set myself free.

But something whispers to me.

I have to let myself breathe.

 

 
 

REVIVE

I’ve been down and out for so long.

Constantly cutting down my worth,

comparing my accomplishments.

Finding it hard to face the morning.

 

I feel I'm never good enough.

A requirement that I just don’t make the cut.

I see the image of what I want to be,

setting expectations over me.

 

I can’t keep doing this to myself.

I'm running in circles again.

I am my own worst enemy.

I have to start believing in myself.

 

I’ve been trying to prove myself

to everyone who will listen, but for what?

Acceptance of strangers passing by

will never make me feel alive.

 

I can’t count my value to empty compliments.

Finding happiness will only come from my own peace of mind.

 

I can’t keep doing this to myself.

I'm running in circles again.

I am my own worst enemy.

I have to start believing in myself.

 

 

No matter the fight,

No matter the test,

No matter the challenge,

I am brave enough.

No matter what,

I am enough.

 

I won’t keep doing this to myself.

I'm moving in the right direction.

I know my worth in my reflection.

I’ll never stop believing in myself.

ONE MORE DAY

I've been walking, for what feels like years.

My common sense has gone numb, my steps chosen blindly.

I doubt my choices more and more. I walk with

confidence, but I'm just as unsure.

 

I will fight even when I feel like I can’t go on.

I’ll push through the pain and smile all the same.

I swear I’m going through hell 

and I’m starting to fade. 

I need your hope to go one more day. 

 

I want to find a quiet place.

But when I close my eyes to sleep all I see is your face.

 

Hands locked. Palms tight. I'm holding on. 

I won’t let you down.

 

I will fight even when I feel like I can’t go on.

I’ll push through the pain and smile all the same.

I swear I’m going through hell 

and I’m starting to fade. 

I need your hope to go one more day. 

 

I know that this was what I’m made to do,

but the weight of the world left me with 

nothing to hold on to.

I'm trying to stay composed and find my strength. 

You are what gives me strength. 

 

I feel myself starting to fade. I need you

I need your hope to keep me go one more day. 

 

Hands locked. Palms tight. I know I’m made for this.

 

I will fight even when I feel like I can’t go on.

I’ll push through the pain and smile all the same.

I swear I’m going through hell 

and I’m starting to fade. 

I need your hope to go one more day. 

 

One more day.

 

 

LIFELINE

Take me back to when I was 10 years old. 

I wanted nothing more than to be like you. 

In that moment, you took my hand, life was unsure, 

but you promised it’d okay.

 

You stand tall above the scars,

Not letting the past define you.

The light of your smile, embracing everyone.

Showing me what it means to be, 

 

A better person because of you. 

You taught me to love

and change my point of view. 

I can face my fears, look straight into the mirror. 

Learned my strength and it’s all ‘cause of you.

 

On that autumn day surrounded by loved ones. 

I cried seeing you in white when I swore not too.

In that moment, when he took your hand, 

life was perfect, and I knew you’d be okay.

 

And you, you lead with grace. 

Pathing the way with compassion, love, and empathy. 

Always staying close by just in case.

To a world outside, you are my lifeline. 

 

I’m a better person because of you.  

You taught me to love

and change my point of view. 

I can face my fears, look straight into the mirror. 

Learned my strength and it’s all ‘cause of you.

 

After all these years you still believe in me. 

Supporting my interests and the person that I am meant to be. 

After all these years you still know what to say.

The right thing, the right way. 

 

I’m a better person because of you  

You taught me to love

and change my point of view. 

I can face my fears, look straight into the mirror 

Learned my strength and it’s all ‘cause of you 

 

 

 

WAVES

Since I remember the ocean has sang songs to me.

Waves captivating my every dream.

The tide is washing true colors through me.  

 

I can’t explain why, it doesn’t make sense.

The sea calls out my name, I can’t ignore it, 

and I know you’ll miss me when I’m gone.

Let the wind fill my sails and take me where I belong. 

 

I can see the disappointment in your eyes. 

You only want what is best for me. (You don’t understand why) 

I want to do right by you, (and make you proud)

And grow into the person you want me to be. 

 

I wish I wanted to lead by example. 

To proudly take the track laid out before me. 

But my heart is pulled by the currents.

 I feel like there is something wrong with me. 

 

I can’t explain why, it doesn’t make sense.

The sea calls out my name, I can’t ignore it, 

and I know you’ll miss me when I’m gone.

Let the wind fill my sails and take me where I belong. 

 

This has been apart of me all along. 

No matter how hard I try, I can’t move on.

The waves crash so I can breathe.

I know that this is where I belong. 

 

This is apart of me. I’ve known it all along.

This is who I am. Where I belong 

 

I can’t explain why, it doesn’t make sense.

The sea calls out my name, I can’t ignore it, 

and I know you’ll miss me when I’m gone.

Let the wind fill my sails and take me where I belong. 

 

 

OF SAYING GOODBYE

I’m not sure of what to say to you at this point. 

I wanted so bad to forgive you.

To believe that you were just broken. 

I hoped that one day I could take your hand

and hear your voice say that it would be okay. 

I guess I was just holding on to a stupid dream. 

But you were everything to me. 

 

It took a single call to realize that you were empty and selfish. 

I wanted to scream in your face,

but my words were silenced by disbelief. 

Choked with so much resentment and sorrow. 

 

Why are you like this? 

Why can't you be the woman I needed you to be?

I needed you to be strong, but you always chose poison over me. 

 

We were just kids, trying to hold it together.

"Keep the door locked. Be home before dark." 

Not to keep us safe, but to hide from your mistakes.

 

Mistakes that you made over and over again. 

Mistakes that almost left you lifeless on a hospital bed. 

 

Yet you still do it again. 

You were given a second chance at life. 

To do things right but you go back to your habits,

 

Now I walk on my own,

Taking one step at a time around your footprints. 

Your blood runs through me and I want to tear it out. 

I know that you are a part of me,

but it fills me with nothing but shame.

All I feel towards you is hate. 

 

You are not sick. You are the disease. 

 

I won’t hold my breath, waiting for this nightmare to end. 

I can’t keep feeling this heartache for you.

I’ve accepted a life, without saying goodbye.

I’ve cried enough for you.

 

Goodbye forever. We won’t meet again.

 

 

MORE THAN FINE

The world rushing by, the wind fueling our flight. 

You took my hand and held it tight.

Together we sang that we were more than all right.

More than bent on getting by.

We're more than fine. 

But she needed me to come back,

To keep her foundation from crumbling.

Her silence deafening, pushing me 

Deeper underground. 
 

I am trying to be stronger to find the path for me. 

Without you, I can’t breathe 

I need you here to put my mind to sleep.

I am trying to bring hope to our broken family. 

Without you, I can’t see 

I need you here to guide the way.

I recite our melodies to a cracked frame of what used to be.

Pretending to be more than just okay. 

Pretending to be more than just all right. 
 

But she keeps the door locked,

To prevent my heart from wandering. 

Her touch burns away your love 

Pulling us further apart. 

I am trying to be stronger to find the path for me. 

Without you, I can’t breathe 

I need you here to put my mind to sleep.

I am trying to bring hope to our broken family. 

Without you, I can’t see 

I need you here to guide the way.

I’m trying to fight my way out. I know you’d want me to.

I swear I’m trying my best, but I can’t make this right.

I know you said be strong but I just,

I need you here. 
 

I am trying to bring hope to our broken family. 

Without you, I can’t see. 

I need you here to guide the way.

 

I need you here.

 

 

CHANCE

That morning I watched you leave.

Your face getting smaller and smaller in the back window. 

I could feel your heartbreaking just as much as mine. 

You didn’t know where you were going, and neither did I.
 

I tried to follow you, hands choked me back.

I tried to call out to you, my vision went black. 

Wherever you are, I hope you know.
 

Think of me now and then. Don’t forget me just yet.

Hold on, I’m on my way to you.

Remember what you said, I’m always here with you.

This I promise, I’ll come back to you 

That night I left the grid.

Hoping to pick up a sense of the place you went. 

I watched the stars dance by 

and the sun stretch to the ends of the earth. 

Wishing nothing more than to end up with you. 

 

Think of me now and then. Don’t forget me just yet.

Hold on, I’m on my way to you.

Remember what you said, I’m always here with you.

This I promise, I’ll come back to you. 

I tried to find you, but I’ve slide under the tracks

I tried to find you, and I can’t climb out.

 

Every time I try, I slide back to the bottom. 

But for you, I will find my ground. 

I swear I won’t let you down.

 

Think of me now and then. Don’t forget me just yet.

Hold on, I’m on my way to you.

Remember what you said, I’m always here with you.

This I promise, I’ll come back to you. 

 

 

THE CALM BEFORE

I stand here alone, surrounded by the dark,

Feeling the chill of the water.

 

The world around me is so still.
Somewhere in this storm, I’ve lost my will.
I'm caught in the tide searching for my mind, 

trying to see the pieces left behind.

 

My knuckles turning white. Hanging on for fucking dear life.

This candle gives me light, all I want to do is let go. 

 

The silence brings peace and the shadows give protection. 

I want to give this flame to the current and be devoured by the night.

 

The world around me is so still.
Somewhere in this storm, I’ve lost my will.
I'm caught in the tide searching for my mind, 

trying to see the pieces left behind.

 

My knuckles turning white. Hanging on for fucking dear life.

This candle gives me light, all I want to do is let go. 

 

I need to let go of it. No, I can’t let go of it.

Oh god, please something take it away.

So I can finally go to sleep.

 

Please take it away so I can go to sleep. 

I have nothing left to give. 

Please let me go to sleep.