A WORLD AHEAD
Confined with no space to speak.
Build up the skin to hide what composes me.
I see the path but my soles are worn and filled with mud.
The needle threads, An image of beasts
marching in heroic certainty.
I am the tiger.
A gem among a world of stone.
I won’t be mastered by what holds me down.
My quiet hands shuffling undetected,
searching for relief.
Where is my affirmation to make more of this.
To live a life worthwhile.
I am the tiger.
A gem among a world of stone.
I won’t be mastered by what holds me down.
I am the tiger (among a world of stone)
I am the tiger (among a world of stone)
I am the tiger (among a world)
My hands pushed under the weight
of my mistakes and doubts.
Dreams and hopes pushed aside.
I can’t live a life for someone else.
My life comes first.
My life comes first.
I am a gem among a world of stone.
I am the beast on the tapestry.
I am the courage that the needle sews
My life comes first.
My life comes first.
Put fear aside (Don’t look back)
The relief from pressure set me free.
Hold my head high. I won’t let this shift sway me.
Hold strong.
I can create the life I underestimated for so long.
For me to write the lines. I now see the world that lies ahead.
The world that lies ahead for me.
I am the gem. I am the tiger. I am the courage.
My life comes first.
I am the gem. I am the tiger. I am the courage.
My life comes first.
HARDEST PART
I’m trying to wrap my head around this.
It’s too dark to see the light.
I've never given thought to a life,
without you here by my side.
Everything made sense, like how to face the world
and give it all we had.
I’m counting days,
I can’t remember the last time I saw your face
I can only hope you found what saved you
from all the heartache and pain.
I've never given thought to a life,
without you here by my side.
Everything made sense, like how to face the world
and give it all we had.
I feel so numb. How long has it been? It feels like forever.
I can’t face the light. I don’t want to face the light.
But I know you’re gone and I can’t change that.
I know it’s time time to allow myself to feel
and feel the warmth in my heart.
What were the last words I said, I can't remember?
Did I tell you I loved you?
Maybe if I scream loud enough you'll hear me.
Can you hear me?
The smile on my face can't fill my empty heart
(Hold your breath count to three)
Hold your breath. Count to three
(Take my hand, I can feel it too)
I'm screaming my lungs out
(There’s a place better than here)
Oh God I've missed you
(Close your eyes it’ll all be over soon)
and I thank you for making me feel alive
Oh god, I’ve missed you. What were the last words that I said?
I can’t even remember. You were my closest friend and I thank you. Thank you for making me feel alive.
I am screaming can you hear me?
(Hold your breath count to three)
hold your breath count to three.
(Take my hand, I can feel it too)
What were the last words I said
(There’s a place better than here)
It feels like forever.
(Close your eyes it’ll all be over soon)
Oh god, I’ve missed you.
Hold your breath count to three.
Take my hand, I can feel it too.
There’s a place better than here.
Close your eyes it’ll all be over soon
WEST ARCHER
I don’t know why I just needed to hear your voice.
Something called me to hear you say one last time.
I’m so happy that I did.
The blank page you gave me, possibilities no boundaries.
To fill in broken lines and create new ones to explore.
A bushel and a peck (A second chance)
A hug around the neck (Where I feel okay)
Your eyes are filled with love, not with aesthetics.
Decency was good enough.
You wouldn’t let the disease cloud your spirit.
You wrapped your pain away so no one would hear it.
You took the weight on your shoulders,
and still gave me all that you could.
A bushel and a peck (A second chance)
A hug around the neck (I know I’m safe)
The place to be my own (A clean slate)
Where I know I’m safe.
I’m alive because of you.
I’m alive because of you
Plans have changed but I know that you’re proud of me.
A bushel and a peck (If I could see you one more time)
A hug around the neck (I would thank you for saving my life)
The place to be my own (If could see you one last time)
Where I know I’m safe (You Inspired me to follow my heart)
I get it now.
This is what you wanted.
Because of you, I am alive.
I’m alive. I understand it now.
THE WAITING PLACE
Today is your day.
You’ve set out to make a change for the better.
Today is your day.
Your future’s bright and it’s time to be on your way.
You have a head on your shoulders and a heart in your chest.
You have the capacities to pave the way and live your life.
You’re on your own and you know what you know.
Take what you have been taught and step out the door.
You’ll be on your way up.
On your way up
You’ll be on your way up,
see the joys of this world.
The places you'll go. The things you will see.
This life is yours for the taking.
Make the most of it.
Out there things can happen, good or bad. (Make the most of it)
It’s up to you to work with the cards dealt to your hand.
Wherever you go, you’ll top all the rest.
Except when you don’t.
Because sometimes you won’t.
You won’t always win and you won’t always lose.
Sometimes you’ll find yourself in a slump.
Sliding down the barrel to a lonely place.
A place where people sometimes never leave.
Where they just sit in the waiting place.
But this place isn’t for you.
You are meant to just pass through.
Somehow you’ll escape and find the things you’re meant to do.
You will continue your journey,
passing through street after street.
You’ll keep moving on up and be famous as can be.
You will do amazing things.
Except when you don’t.
Because sometimes you won’t.
Keep walking, one foot at a time.
Don’t get caught in that waiting place.
Keep your eyes to the sky.
I know you’ll move mountains.
GREENBOW COUNTY
I have to do the best with, what I am made of.
What’s normal anyway?
Put the past behind. let go and move forward.
The question is in my destiny,
Something I have to find for myself.
I reached the end of my road.
Don’t stop here. Keep running.
Run it’s all that seems right to me.
There's nothing left for me here.
Run to what I need.
I’ve got to give it my all I can't lose my hope.
Chin up. Wipe away tears.
I am better than what I hold myself to.
I’ve got to give it my all I can’t lose my hope.
I have to stand tall.
Run it’s all that seems right to me.
There's nothing left for me here.
Run to what I need.
I’ve got to give it my all. I can't lose my hope.
Chin up. Wipe away tears.
I am better than what I hold myself to.
I'm better than what I hold myself too.
I've got give my all. I can't lose my hope.
I have to stand strong. I've have give my all.
I can't lose my hope. Stand tall.
(Give it your all)
Push forward.
SKEPTIC
What I am lies in me, the strength to fight it all,
to feel okay, to stand alone.
Follow in lines to be cared about,
step by step to fall apart, dug this hole to get out,
I'm try to be what I'm not.
Pulled inside myself and tore it all apart
Who are you to say I'm wrong?
That I'm not good enough?
This is my day, I'll prove you all,
I'm never giving up.
What I held myself to, can't compare to what lies within,
Look at what I have done, regardless of support.
The courage to hold my own, to look past the weight.
There has to be more.
The shell that closed me off, can't protect me anymore.
Lift up these eyes to see, what I've been fighting for.
Sweat and tears from this constant battle.
These scraped up knuckles prove that I am someone,
I am someone.
Follow in lines to be cared about,
step by step to fall apart, dug this hole to get out.
I'm trying to be what I'm not.
Pulled inside myself and tore it all apart
Who are you to say I'm wrong?
That I'm not good enough?
This is my day, I'll prove you all,
I'm never giving up.
What I am lies in me, the strength to fight it all,
to feel okay, to stand alone.
CALL ME ISHMAEL
Call me faceless, November suppresses my vitality.
I grow grim, at comfort in the challenger deep
I have withdrawn from this life as it hangs over me.
I am tangled in this notion of being “all right.”
This ghost haunts me. I see it in the light and behind my eyes.
I hope to find closure on the voyage setting sail.
To put an end to this once and for all.
To my back an ocean miles between who I am and what I know
I’m fading away.
I’m trapped in a maze of things I could have done.
Why can’t I see the distance is killing me.
I want my life back, my happiness restored.
I wish I recognized the pain I felt before.
It is too late. I can’t go back and undo the mistakes
The connection I have to the person that I use to be.
Obsession is the only structure to the void I feel.
From hell’s heart, I will fight.
For hate’s sake, I will spit my last breath
"Thus, I give up the spear!"
Let go. Why can’t I let it go? All I see is white.
All I see is white regardless of the shipwreck around me.
I want my life back, my happiness restored
I wish I recognized the pain I felt before.
It is too late. I can’t go back and undo the mistakes
I can’t let this drown me. Find the strength to let the rope go.
Happiness isn’t written on any map. true places never are.
THIS IS HOME
Don't close the door,
I know you feel the world is falling apart.
Don't close the door,
I know it hurts but please just hold on.
The pain will dispel, and find its peace.
The strength’s in your hands, your hands.
What lies ahead is unknown, it’s not too far gone.
You must have hope
This world will stop for no one,
don’t let your life come undone.
Believe and take my hand, this is home.
You can’t let the heartache defeat you,
breath in and out
Hold up your head, don’t look back,
You mean so much more
The pain will dispel, and find its peace.
The strength’s in your hands, your hands.
What lies ahead is unknown, it’s not too far gone.
You must have hope
This world will stop for no one,
don’t let your life come undone.
Believe and take my hand, this is home.
Through thick and thin, You are a force to behold
Despite all odds, you are a piece of this world
You are a piece of this world.
What lies ahead is unknown, it’s not too far gone.
You must have hope
This world will stop for no one,
don’t let your life come undone.
Believe and take my hand, this is home.
Enough, running from it. Be strong, fight for this
Enough, hiding those eyes. It's your time, to find your home.
SEPARATION THEORY
I'd rather be, without guidance, than follow in your footsteps
and fall just like you.
I've spent my whole life, wondering, who you would have been.
You can’t face who you are and what you’ve become.
How dare you, prize the needle,
it numbed your skin and stole my world.
The thing that makes you feel alive is what tore our heart apart.
The thing that makes you feel you’re gone will eat your insides out.
You can only go so far before your ribs cave in under it.
You can only lose so much you will down in guilt.
I've seen the strength, that separates, you from me.
It separates you.
How dare you, prize the needle,
it numbed your skin and stole my world
How could you, turn your back on me
close your eyes don’t pretend it's all okay.
You can only go so far.
behind it all, you stand so small.
Without guidance, then follow in your footsteps
and fall just like you.
I've spent my whole life, wondering, who you would have been.
You can’t face who you are.
You've become.
CHANGE OF HEART
Half-hearted, wasted space. This life is just a drop of rain
Floating vacant, letting it slip through your hands, your hands.
Nobody, can help you. Nobody, will lend an ear.
Nobody, will give a second glance. Nobody, ever will.
You can't expect to live your life this way forever. (forever)
Indolence, refusing to take hold.
Apathy, acting as an empty shell
Step back to see the truth. Only you can make change.
There's so much more to life, than the way you've lived it.
Turn yourself around.
The door is open now. Search, find, and confront it.
You can always give more.
Give a shit about your life. Step away from the traps.
It’s never over, don’t give in.
It's time to make yourself worth something.
There is always a choice. You're the one in control
Change your heart.